I have been gone from the States for more than five weeks so far & already got some poor news that my uncle is dying, this is what bothers myself and others about living overseas, that I don’t get to be around family more often as they get older & pass on. My dad went more than one years ago & I am sure there will be more coming soon, or leaving soon I should say. But I am here overseas to pursue my dreams in music, but my dreams are costing myself and others my family. I have a lot of friends back home, including Heating, Ventilation & A/C tech coworkers & heating specialists from when I was working in the Heating, Ventilation & A/C field over there. It is kind of a mental tug of war I am going through because I actually want to be here to advance my musical work but I actually want to be there to see my family & friends more often; I could transport back & become a local supplier again doing Heating, Ventilation & A/C repair calls, but I guess prefer I would be anxious knowing that I threw my dreams away; What would you do? It isn’t easy to keep going back & forth to visit often as it costs a lot of currency & is a sizable long flight back. The air conditioning in the plane is usually too cold & I end up getting sick for a month or more than one. I think I have to live my life, but the afternoon momma passes away while I am here will be a single of the darkest mornings of my life.