It’s been a rough few years since my actual hubby passed away.
A life of 50 years with this man that will never be forgotten nor replaced.
After his passing, I started drinking and not taking care of my health in general. My life just became nothing without the man. I still had my child although he has his life with his husband and children and I didn’t want him to deal with my depression. The drinking got out of control completely and I would find myself always at a bar waiting for something, anything however I never really knew what it was. My life was basically flipped upside down and I just didn’t know what to do anymore. That went on for quite some time and with the depression and alcohol came the overpriced bills. I wasn’t taking care of my health however at the same time I really stopped taking care of the dwelling also. Things started to go throughout the dwelling and I didn’t care to take care of anything. Then with winter season fast approaching my HVAC appliance also went. I didn’t have the money. I blew it all the last few years on just stupid life choices. I called the HVAC company and they said they would send out a heating and cooling appliance expert but I knew even after he looked at my HVAC appliance I wouldn’t be able to afford the heating repairs. It might be a frigid winter season and I won’t be able to cover the cost for the repairs till the new year. I seriously hope I can make it. I started sobering up and taking care of things but I hope it’s not too late to fix up my life.